I can relate to nan…
In the Pinoy Big Brother (PBB) teen edition plus, there was a housemate called nan. He’s a happy person, doesn’t like to be serious that much or be lonely so he just use his cheerful smile to forget and let all the problems pass. If he’s in a sad mood or something happened that is unhappy, he couldn’t return back to his normal happy self that quickly and that’s what he hate most.

For me personally, i’m a fan of PBB but i don’t give that much time of knowing all the housemates, i just simply want to watch but when the 9th nomination night, I noticed Nan suddenly, when he and Beatuy are having arguments. I can say that i can relate to Nan’s personality. I am always a “happy-go-lucky” person that doesn’t want to be that serious and just simply just want to smile and be happy all the time. And I hate that when the time comes that something sad or awkward things would happen, I have a hard time of returning back to my original “happy” self.

And others would eventually misunderstand me because i’m not serious and just always joking. Although i am not that serious from the outside, but deep inside i am also thinking and keeping my seriousness inside. And even though i am that show off of my emotional side, but deep inside i am also hurt and have many problems.

And the thing i hate most is that others don’t trust me because of my attitude, just always joking and not taking things seriously but they just don’t know how painful it is to not be trusted. But once you trusted me, i will asure you that i will fight for that trust of yours till the end.

I just need someone that trust me even if i’m like this… and that alone will make me happy and grateful.

I know this kind of attitude is somewhat not good because of keeping the pain just by myself but this is me, it’s hard but hey! i still survive and still fighting for my space in this world.